This is going to be a bittersweet year. Like “celebrating” your beloved relative’s birthday, shortly after they got the news that their cancer is back again.
You will see the candles through a veil of tears, find your voice quivering, as you realize that this may well be the last time you will sing those words for her, and fight to keep that smile on your face.
Because, although she is Not Dead Yet, the odds in favor of her survival don’t look too good.
That doesn’t mean that you are throwing in the towel, only that you recognize that the fight has long odds against its success.
So. Happy to be with her. But, also, Sad for her prospects.